I finally saw Max for the last time today, I had to collect a shirt that I left at his fr when I stayed round. I had bought him a small bottle of Boss original for letting me use all of his recources, and even if we weren't going out, I do like to say thanks to people if I can. I left a note intact in there stating the reason why, although it was based for when I was seeing him, meaning it did have bits in there about us as a couple.
it was hard seeing him and I didnt know whether to feel angry or vulnerable, he did smile at one point, which did irritate me, yet I almost felt drawn in. I just couldn't keep eye contact with him, I felt so uncomfortable, but I dont think friends could work since seeing him has brought back feeling I'd rather put behind me.
On the other side of my Gemini Hawaii is only 6 days away and I could do anything to be with someone I can just chill with, me and aaron get on really well and have the same interests, so we have pleanty to chat about, so cocktails on the beach will be my main and only concern while I'm out there. The flights booked and my moneys converted, I just need to pack my case! Woop!